Dont Give Excuses..

You know, I hear that line a lot ? Its like, everytime Im trying to loose weight.. not that I need to loose too much weight.. just a lill bit.. but then.. everytime I attempt whole heartedly to loose weight, something or the other comes up, thats not in my hand and it doesn't work out.. Ofcourse people dont believe me and say, Im giving excuses!

Its the truth though. Either Ill be a little sad, and will sit and hog on pizza and ice-cream, or Ill just not be able to go for a workout, or something or the other will definitely happen to prevent me from loosing weight. Here's something that will probably throw some light on my plight.

So, last week, I had two of my best friend's birthdays and obviously I couldn't not eat. So, there was a lot of fat consumption. And, everyday, I'd either get late from work or something or the other would happen, and I'd not be able to work out. After that, one of my best friend decides to go all rude on me, like a lot. Toh I obviously decide to cut out. When I do that, I realize that though the person deserved it, I wish I had the company. But I say, forget it. Its upto the person to understand where what boundaries are, and that you can't just insult someone over and over again - Specially if I'm being understanding, you can't really blow up for every small thing.

Anyhow, so obviously, I sit and don't feel like going out much, and I sit and eat. What else? Then I realize that enough is enough. I don't wanna waste any time on stupid crap, and instead focus on loosing some weight. The last entry to my gym on a Sunday is 3pm. So I get up realy early.. 7am.. and decide to go.. its kinda too early.. so I wake up again at 11.. and as Im about to get ready, loads of things happen, I hurt my self, I get phone calls from home, some work related ideas pop into my head. I cut through everything, don't give a damn about anything, and finally get ready. My gym bag isn't there now. Just can't find it. So, I said, never mind, Im not giving up. I put my gym stuff in a plastic papa-johns pizza bag and took off on my way for gym.. oh so proudly.

Its raining, a little, but where I'v fought so much, whats a little rain ? I stop by to check the time with someone, just incase I'm too late. Its only 2.15pm. Im so happy. I then realize I don't have my i-pod, because without my kinda music, I tend to workout lesser. I said, never mind, its a start, Im gonna do it. I reach the gym, and theres a notice there. "We deeply regret to inform all our customers that our gym will be closed for renovation and major upgradation from the 12th of August to the end of September. We realize that since this affects your membership status, you will get the time extended on your membership. Once again we apologize for the inconvenience caused."

Inconvenience? What the ****. What's a guy to do. I came back home. After that what I did is just even more depressing, so I'm going to leave it out. But cmon.. What am I to do ? How am I making excuses ?

Long hair isn't looking bad at all !!

A lill weight loss and a lill longer hair, not asking too much, am I ?

No Crap

I so wanted to start by saying, hey Im back to blogging, but seriously - no crap. I hope I continue to blog. The reason, Im here today, is the fact that I had nothing to do. Not that I had nothing at all possibly to do, but nothing of the very, very few options that I have, there wasnt really anything that I wanted to do. So I decided to write down whatever thoughts I had in my head.

My neighbours were fighting today - a couple; and I could clearly hear all the arguments. I was alone, with no intentions of doing anything all day, sitting at my desk with my computer, and I couldn't help but hear the entire conversation. Not that I will reveal it here, but, the things that happened... unbelivable.

What I realized was that, at one point, the guy found himself alone. Im not saying, the fight / argument was the girl's fault or the guy's. Just the fact that at the end of everything, this dude is like totally lonely, he takes off for the riverside all alone, and I can see him down from my window, with a cigarette in his hand. He isn't a smoker really. Or may be I should say not yet.

May be hes just too weak to start smoking or get into a habit, because of a fight or something. But then I thought to myself, how much is anyone there for anyone else. A friend may be there for a short distance, a spouse for a longer distance.. parents may be a little further.. but then.. how far ? Won't it be nice to not be bound in anyway to another person. Not that we ignore our responsibilities or duties to other people, friends, family, etc. but then, if we are bound to them in ways other than necessary, we are just preparing ourselves for further disruption, aren't we?

- Ah, the hair has grown, doesnt look tht bad, does it ?

Well, lets wait a few months and see !!