Good Morning, Welcome Class !

"... they key to this thing is ... " ... Oh My God.. some people.. juz go on and on.. and I'm like naaah the thing is that... " .. but you see internet explorer no longer supports .. " ... ok dude.. I really don't use IE.. I'm an open source guy... I use mozilla... ".. and that is where the WAS server is supposed to host ..." ... Oh My God.. he just wont stop... What did I do.. ? Why did I take this class ? He's like, lets package this stuff in a lets go to WAR file or a chop off my EAR file.. God... Its seemingly all about the concepts and nothing about actually doing something..

Thats how most courses are actually. Even at university. Some are practical oriented, but I dont think learning has anything to do with education. Learning can be done by yourself and education, in the sense we see it today, like the university perspective and stuff, is all about getting what they are talking about. It is something, in some perspective, in some place at some time. It doesn't mean anything.

Anyway, an entirely useless day. Din't do much. Din't do anything, actually. Wanted to write a page more in my book, but I don't think it really matter, because my inspiration for the book is the proximity within extreeme distances. But somehow the contrary is happening. No, no, I'm not talking about setting up networks over long distances or wireless in a close by range. Cmon.

This Is Nothing.. Class Was Much More Boring

Just a lill bit longer....

This weekend is going so good. Nice day. Nice weather. Great Hike. But, today was a very "just a lill bit longer.." day. On the whole I mean. Just 2 minutes more is what I wanted. It was hot. It was up and up the mountain. It was 6 whole miles. And ofcourse, my diet was killing me. I swore that if I dint loose some weight atleast at the end of this, I'd just res ton sunday and hog and hog.

Anyway, my luck wasn't that bad today. So it was good. But the best part was at the top. The hilltop actually. It has this tower and stuff, and over there this big book. Where we scribbled stuff. "Parik was here", Nov 2nd in the book. Gotta remember that date.

So ya, the whole day was about a lill bit more. Besides wanting a lill more rest each time we stopped or a few more mins to talk, somehow, I felt I had it all but... just wanted a lill more. Just a lill.

But then, I guess, its not always quantity, its the quality. Just two minutes more I wanted. But does that matter ? Nope. Why ? Because not just two, but 20, or even the 200 minutes, would all be so.. soo.. valueless in some sense... the same mundane issues... you're still just another person... Its like so weird.

Me, David, Anna, arriving at the top.. finally..

Why Cant I Focus ?

I thought and thought, and eventually I realized that what is missing in life, is focus. Well, according to my categorization atleast. But I could somehow not improve. The way I saw it was that, having a wrong focus was the same as having no focus. I mean i did not explicitly think about it, but I would just feel that I'm not focusing in one direciton, without realizing that I am actually focusing, but in the wrong direction. Which obviously, makes my efforts futile.

I wanted to do a Masters in Engineering Management, or you know more like management related stuff, for a long time but couldn't find a right course, and I don't think I have the grades to get into some schools. Some places I find really good computer security related masters programs, which I absolutely love. However, I haven't taken the GRE yet, my grades are screwed up, my essays aren't ready, and I don't have my recommendations. And I am still supposed to apply, for Spring 05. I'm so confused. Lets hope I can get something done soon.

Anyway, coming back to my point of focus. I think everything in life should be focused at something. And this time I have realized that wrong focus is worse than having no focus at all. It applies to everything, every field and even across two different fields. Ok, I know some of you can't understand crap about what I'm saying, but I guess I am trying to sort myself out as well while writing this blog. See, its not easy to survive with crazy people in your life.

Yea, so focus. Lets focus things in the right direction. I mean, for example, if you hate someone then hate them. Focus your hatred in the right direction, don't let it come between you and the ones you love. Ya, and what I should be doing is, focusing my energies to loosing weight, working out, completing my office project, studying for the GRE, and applying to universities. Ok, that brings another point to my mind, and that is prioritizing. Yeah, I don't do that either.

- f o c u s s s . . . . .

Quit Playing Games With My Soul !

I gave her everything. Everything I could, but my soul.
Dude ! I bet they want that too.

- Breakin All The Rules (Movie).

Yes, you are right. I'm talking about women again. But what does one do? Being honest, just doesn't seem to pay off. I mean I know like a million jerks who are doing just fine, and its because they dont tell her everything. They are not willing to do anything to make her feel better. They dont give them their soul. I mean not that you execpt these type of "jerks" to have an honest soul, but anyway.

So, if you say you are willing to make them feel better, it doesnt work. If another she has done something wrong, your she also wants to do it. She says it may make her feel better. May be. But whatever happened to humanity? And what happened to love and respect and all that good stuff, u know ? I guess the bottom line is that, its always your fault. I mean, we always hear, am I asking for too much ? Nohhh ! Noo no no, I dont wanna die.

All I'm trying to say is that, lets solve any issues that we have a little more sensibly, and let the "he" have the same status as the "she". Oh no, don't even think about woman's rights. Soon we are gonna be on the streets carrying flags saying, men deserve some rights too. However, if we want them, we have to say, please please give me my rights, I'm sorry. (Yes, You have to say sorry, idot. Don't you know. YES It is your fault.)

Why do the men have to like be sorry all the time ? Its like, not even your fault, its some one elses. But then, you exist, dont you ? Thats enough of a fault. I mean, they can find a fault in anything and everything. The best of the things you do for them, the more you give, the more it is your fault, you know ?

See I know what you are thinking, why doesn't he just shut up. We all know what the problems are, but are taking it quitely. No option. They got a deal. I wanna get a good deal too. I mean I have a proposal, yea ?

Lets just keep our own souls, and we all have a good time, yea ?!!

Pleaseee, Pleaseee, Im sorry, Im sorry.

Technology At My Finger Tips ?

These days I'v been really busy with my PMA. Or the so called Personal Media Assistant. It is a full functional PDA, a wi-fi internet device, digital photo book, movie player, mp3 player, ipod, radio, palmtop, digital address book, web broswer, a game boy ! and it even has a linux console to do the typical linux commands n stuff. I can record stuff off the television, and it recognizes handwriting and voice. Stores 30 gigs too! The best thing about it is that it connects to everything, to the TV, my cameras, laptop, desktop computer, cell fone, usb jump drive, everything ! And me, It connects to me too !!!! LoL.. On an emotional level i mean.. I'v been exploring its features. Trying to download new softwares to install on it. Play games on it. But the saddest part is that it damned doesn't have many games released for it yet. Its so new, damn it.

Anyhow, besides these things, Iv also been trying to focus on my work, which isnt really going to well, because the project I was working on was scrapped, and now im working on 3 different things, and its all weird.

Golfing is fun, and Im gonna drag Jas to play every weekend. Besides that, my workout too is nice, but because Iv started weights after so long and my bloody body is so sore. I just feel like sleeping all day and all night. Hopefully I'll be stud boy again... pretty soon... lol... Updated my Photo Album, made some weekend plans, and I guess thats about it.. OMG Its just Tuesday yet..

Writing Fit ?

So, its another normal day at work. I come in and like my dad used to say, i'm busy without work. Now, Jas asks me, dude why don't you post something, its been forever. And i'm like Oh My God, don't even get me started. The reason I'v not been writing, is because I'v been feeling like writing all the time. No i mean literally all the time.

Obviously, I havent really done much work on my book, but other stuff i feel like writing, all the time. Since this book thing a few months ago, Iv juz been thinking.. God knows what.. Jas told me that my chicken curry is all famous and stuff so i felt like writing a cook book.. Indian cook book.. like there aren't enough already.. I saw the blue brain IBM's super computer implementation and omg what not I wanted to write.. I was golfing with Jason, and was gonna write about the experiences of a new golfer..