Why Cant I Focus ?

I thought and thought, and eventually I realized that what is missing in life, is focus. Well, according to my categorization atleast. But I could somehow not improve. The way I saw it was that, having a wrong focus was the same as having no focus. I mean i did not explicitly think about it, but I would just feel that I'm not focusing in one direciton, without realizing that I am actually focusing, but in the wrong direction. Which obviously, makes my efforts futile.

I wanted to do a Masters in Engineering Management, or you know more like management related stuff, for a long time but couldn't find a right course, and I don't think I have the grades to get into some schools. Some places I find really good computer security related masters programs, which I absolutely love. However, I haven't taken the GRE yet, my grades are screwed up, my essays aren't ready, and I don't have my recommendations. And I am still supposed to apply, for Spring 05. I'm so confused. Lets hope I can get something done soon.

Anyway, coming back to my point of focus. I think everything in life should be focused at something. And this time I have realized that wrong focus is worse than having no focus at all. It applies to everything, every field and even across two different fields. Ok, I know some of you can't understand crap about what I'm saying, but I guess I am trying to sort myself out as well while writing this blog. See, its not easy to survive with crazy people in your life.

Yea, so focus. Lets focus things in the right direction. I mean, for example, if you hate someone then hate them. Focus your hatred in the right direction, don't let it come between you and the ones you love. Ya, and what I should be doing is, focusing my energies to loosing weight, working out, completing my office project, studying for the GRE, and applying to universities. Ok, that brings another point to my mind, and that is prioritizing. Yeah, I don't do that either.

- f o c u s s s . . . . .